Saturday, February 6, 2010

unpretty...

edited: In case my friends stumple onto my blog...



Unpretty by TLC and then Beautiful by Christina Aguilera are songs I put them on repeat to try to make myself feel better. I dunno if im making a big deal about it but this was the first time I have ever felt like the fat girl in the group and I dunno it really upset me.

But yeah on a side note when i signed on today i was so happy to see that I have two followers!!! Yay thank you Weesha from Weesha's World and Stephanie from Buttons, Bows & Brogues! It really made happy to see that, plus i saw the comment Stephanie left for me on her comment box in one of her posts and it really made me smile! Thank you very much! :)

P.S. so sorry for venting!!! But i felt like i had to do it somewhere and where else to do it then my blog :p

4 comments:

  1. Awww!
    I'm sorry that you feel different within your group of friends because of your body size...You should feel confident though, you are very beautiful! The thing that is so wonderful about the world is that everyone is different and unique..Maybe to help you feel a little bit more confident, make a list of the things you love about yourself, and just look at it from time to time to help your mood.

    I actually ended up in the Philippines because of my boyfriend..We were together for 2 years in the states, and we traveled here to visit his parent...We fell in love with it here, so once we both graduated we moved over! School here was hard for me, I can't really relate with the other kids my age here, and I don't speak tagalog...But if you can, it would probably be a lot easier for you!

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  2. Hi Kass! Thanks for your kind words and your idea sounds like a good one, I think im going to try it! Thank you! :)

    Oh and thanks for responding to my comment on your page! Wow that is so awesome, how you moved there, Im so scared to leave home. But that's great you have your boyfriend. I can semi speak tagalog but it sounds pretty bad. hehe But i do understand it really well.

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  3. Nina! I'm having some "Unpretty" days currently myself, which is really odd cause I'm usually the one my friends turn to for an ego boost or pep talk. I think it's just that time of the month and a few other things that are getting to me since I have gained weight since I lost my job last year. Ha, funny how that works. Being poor (not really, but really lol)=gaining weight! AHHH! It sucks! So I've been really self conscious lately about my weight, but I hide it very well. *sigh* We all have our days love.

    I hope eventually that you feel better about your weight and being the larger girl of the group. I'm sure your friends love you just the way you are. & Hey! That drawing isn't bad. You're a beautiful girl and your friend captured that. I suppose I would be slightly offended too if someone drew me as a circle. Geez, at least draw me as a coke bottle. Gosh! :-) Anyways dear, I've got a great ear and if you ever need to vent, I'm only an email away ;-)

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  4. Awww thanks so much NikStar! Its good to know that im not the only one that has "unpretty" days and I am the same way about hiding how i feel as well. It's kinda hard to feel pretty around my friends who are size 1 and 5 and im like a 14 - 16. But they are very awesome that I rarely feel it with them. But thanks for the comment it really helps! :)

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